| Extending twisted fingers emerge from sneering faces |
| They wrap themselves around my tongue, every moment tightening around my mind |
| Emotional assimilation |
| The unity of internalized intolerance |
| And inadequacy scalded onto the psyche of my adolescent self |
| (Do you wish you were white?) |
| Don’t I wish instead I was invisible and inanimate? |
| Characterize my previous mind as a ball of light forming for the |
| Swarm of flies that will feed on my performance of my life |
| Characterize my current mind as passing fears of firearms and watching the |
| outside through the blinds |
| Animosity: my actions and my open appetite superceding a habitual silent |
| seething of venom while shrouded in the darkness of the dead of night |
| I am now bound to burning (Spiteful feelings) |
| And spitting acid masked as healing |
| I maintain my restraints |
| (Here, there is a different pain) |
| I feel small, I’ve shouted down my self-hate |
| (Only to exhume to entertain) |
| Oh, I feel small |
| («It's a shame you feel this way, because what you say educates» |
| ) And I have only myself to blame |
| Here, my self-worth is shaped by what can be observed |
| The first time I learned this I consider my true date of birth |