| Looking back on how it began |
| So young, so naive |
| Desperate to be like them |
| Or anyone but me |
| Craving their validation |
| For a sense of confirmation |
| The feeling I needed |
| It’s just a phase |
| It can’t always be this way |
| Please erase |
| This fucking pain |
| One day I’ll be fine |
| It’s just temporary |
| The ache inside my head |
| I wish I could be numb instead |
| False promises, false assurance |
| Where do I go from here? |
| It’s tearing me at the seams |
| The world is full of colour |
| But all I see is grey |
| I long for the tone to change |
| View the world in a new way |
| An endless cycle |
| That I can’t break |
| Maybe it’s just my fate |
| I could’ve stopped but just let it happen |
| How could I’ve known back then? |
| I should but I’m too scared to try |
| If things just stay the same |
| Will I always feel this way? |
| One day I’ll be fine |
| It’s just temporary |
| The ache inside my head |
| I wish I could be numb instead |
| False promises, false assurance |
| Where do I go from here? |
| It’s tearing me at the seams |
| Fell down the rabbit hole |
| Where a grey cloud hung above |
| I thought I could climb out |
| Once I was finally loved |
| The clouds they stayed around |
| As I kept falling down |
| And although I’m loved now |
| I haven’t made it out |
| Clouds turn into rain |
| I sink into the soil |
| This is where I’ll stay |
| Fill the hole |
| Where I lay |
| Let water flow |
| And my skin decay |
| Is this where I’ll always be? |
| Will things ever change for me? |
| I can’t stay here |
| Can I live on in your memory? |
| What will one more decade change? |
| What will one more day? |
| Please give me a reason to stay |